First smile

It’s a little like a fire,

That warms your tired bones.

Or a newly lit candle,

In a freshly cleaned home.

It’s like another life,

Where I knew you before.

A waiting room of sorts,

My future at the door.

It’s the arms of the sun,

Pulling me close.

Holding me in,

Its afterglow.

It’s like settling in,

And breathing out.

An everyday moment,

I can’t be without.

The way your head feels,

As it rests in my palm.

The fuzz of your hair,

The sound of our calm.

It’s the bloom of spring,

And how it calls.

The weeds as well,

I’ll take it all.

It’s hope and strength,

My reason why.

The reason I smile,

The reason I cry.

It’s invisible strings,

When we’re apart.

My feet will follow,

The tug of my heart.

It’s your hand in mine,

And how it sits.

And when it grows,

Will always fit.

It’s like knowing I have, 

All I need.

To love, to heal,

To grow within me.


Like the blood in my veins,

I know this is true.

But I love, heal and grow,

So much with you.

It’s like the shore,

Hugging the sand.

Spilling itself,

Onto foreign land.

But it’s not really foreign,

Not anymore.

It’s a memory that grounds me,

With knees on the floor.

It’s like a story being told,

Of something new.

About a mother, 

And how she grew.

It’s a song I love,

That I’ve not heard in a while.

It’s impossible to describe,

That very first smile.



Author: Jess Urlichs

Jess is a writer, mother of 2, and lover of 90’s hip hop. You can find her on Instagram here.

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